Tuesday, 02 March 2021
A few days ago, one of the brahmacaris called me. This was my contact, the guy that was supposedly my boss. He just wanted to check up on my sadhana.
Then he asked me if I'd told the higher authorities anything about him. I hadn't. And I told him so. I'm not a snitch, okay? I would never rat on anyone who is or was my friend.
I've got to admit, this guy is the only one who hasn't yet given up on me. At least it seems so.
Usually, when someone leaves ISKCON and moves on with their lives, the organization tends to cut all ties with the said person. And that means everyone. It's an unwritten rule. Why? Because anyone who leaves ISKCON is said to have fallen into Maya.
Anyway, we talked for a bit. And he asked how I was doing. And if I was doing my devotional service. And I asked him, did it matter? I wasn't going to any ISKCON temple. I'd left the organization and moved on to do my own thing – which is, not support an organization with scumbag authorities who treat junior devotees like shit.
I remember telling this guy, no matter how long I stayed away from ISKCON, my devotional service would remain unaffected. Like my sadhana would go on. Everything that I was doing before would still happen because my brain has been programmed that way by this point. It's automatic. I wake up early in the morning, and the first thing I do is worship.
It hurts. And I hate that it hurts me so much. I'd invested my entire life in this organization, and this is the way it had to go down... it sucked.
I was adamant and stubborn and couldn't go back to the organization that had crushed all my dreams. The organization was heartless and couldn't admit any wrongdoing on their part. As far as I was concerned, they still have no clue why I left. I must have “fallen down”.
I don't think I'll ever let it go. I was never a forgiving person, especially when supposedly intelligent people did terrible things. If someone was retarded they could spit in my face, and I'd let it slide. But are the authorities in ISKCON retarded?
So I asked this guy how everyone else was doing. Since he'd called to check up on me, I think it was worthwhile checking up on everyone else. His primary service was preaching. But now the authorities have put him on the grind like the rest of the minions. They've assigned one of their own soldiers to do the preaching instead. Will it work? I don't think so. Preaching in ISKCON has turned into a recruiting tactic. They will either stay in touch with you to solicit some donations from you every once in a while. Or they've studied your terrible background and have hopes that you will join their minions force where they can put you in good use.
I think now he'll understand when I said he wasn't of any value to the organization, just like everyone else. The organization would grind him, use him, and spit him out like a case of bad phlegm.
The authorities have apparently banned one guy from entering the temple premises. Why? Because he fell in love with some girl who also went to the temple. Now the girl isn't banned. He is though. They recently got engaged too. But that hasn't changed the authorities' minds. Perhaps they're setting an example for everyone else to see and learn: This is what happens if you fall in love with someone in ISKCON.
It's ridiculous. He's a young man. So he fell in love with some girl. Big deal. At least they're engaged! Hasn't anyone else in the organization fallen in love?
Instead of looking at the big picture, the dim-witted authorities are focused on hardening their gestapo regime. It's okay to fall in love with someone. When you ban people for falling in love, you're clearly going nuts.
Did anyone in the organization think that this young man had a long life ahead of him? Did anyone think that even if he was in a relationship and got married, he'd still be of enormous use to the organization? It was the first time he'd fallen in love. It was bound to happen at some point.
But oh no! Love is forbidden! We can't have a young man and young woman falling in love! But we sure can have a gay pujari in Australia! Oh that's perfectly acceptable! Gay pujaris? No problem! Yoga classes in the temple? No problem! Heterosexual young man falling in love with a heterosexual young lady? Absolutely disgusting! How dare he! Let's ban him from taking darshana!
LOL. Does anyone else see the irony in this?
I don't have anything against gay pujaris or yoga classes. ISKCON has already incorporated them very well. I'm just surprised that they chose to draw the line when it came to normal regular folks falling in love. They can have sannyasis running off with their disciples wives and sannyasis molesting children and build samadhis for them. But two young folks falling in love is where they draw the line.
If you're an unmarried young man and you fall in love with an unmarried young woman in ISKCON, you will be banned.
Every ISKCON temple is run by different standards. Yet they all share the same banner. They're all under the same organization. One temple may build samadhis for pedophiles, another may allow homosexual pujaris, yet another will tolerate extramarital affairs. You just have to find the right address. Are you just a regular Joe in love with a regular Jane? Please do your research and find a temple willing to accommodate you.
This is why when normal regular devotees fall in love within ISKCON, they'll do their best to hide it from everyone else. You can literally commit any absurd crime and get away with it, but don't fall in love. Y'now this reminds me of years ago, when I was a teenager. My friend's sister came to the temple, and she saw me and she said Hare Krsna and we chatted up. One of the gestapo officers saw this and went off to my contact and told him to get me on a leash. Then he approached me and told me he'd report me to the Temple President if he ever saw me talking to that girl again! LOL I think that was one of my most hilarious moments in ISKCON. I just couldn't believe the nerve of this big fat jackass. To tell me to stay away from a girl that I knew. He didn't know what we were talking about. He didn't even know that I was her brother's best friend. He didn't know anything about us. He just saw us talking, assumed we were having some affair and tried to take us down. Oh yeah – he approached that girl too. He told her to stay away from me and that I was a bad influence! And if he saw her talking to me again, she'd be banned from the temple! This jackass threatened her with a ban because he thought that would be the most effective on her. She was new and didn't know anything about ISKCON. And he threatened to report me to the TP, because he knew damn well, that he had absolutely no power to ban me or anyone from the temple. He knew I knew that. He also knew my position in the temple. And shy of talking to the TP directly, there was no way of stopping me. Haha. Good memories.